Changes

End of the school year brings lots of emotions. I am feeling sad and happy and excited and stressed out all at the same time. I'm sad getting prepared to say goodbye to some great kids, kids I've worked with for two years now, some of whom are very special to me. I happy for Scott and all the exciting things he has going on in his life, retiring (official as of today) and the mcc team, grad school, but that's also pretty scary financially. I'm excited about summer and having free time and Joel being here (yahoo!) and teaching the water class. I'm stressed out about all the activities over the next few weeks and all the needy kids and things to do amidst all the meetings and craziness all day. There are not enough hours in the day and I am out of energy! All these emotions are wearing on me! Yesterday was Scott's birthday. He had his jc practice as usual so I hardly saw him but we had the mcc girls over to surprise him after. Today I had so much on my to do list, starting with fca before school (which is growing again!) then one hour to get stuff done before admin meeting. That gave me another to do list and lots of big things to think about plus other people's emotions to deal with. Then I left to go with the 8th grade resource kids to tour the 9th grade center and go to lunch. That is usally a positive, fun event that brings closure to me but it didn't feel that way and made me more stressed because it took up so much time! I got back and couldn't get a whole lot done before it was time for supervision! That got over and I got home, went to sleep (I feel like I'm fighting off a virus) and decided not to go work out. That gives me more time, and hopefully will help me fight off this whatever it is. It doesn't give me more energy and I feel fat. Oh well. Didn't eat much for dinner. I even ignored the beautiful weather and didn't go for a walk! Then I realized its my tv night! I love to watch Survivor and Americal Idol at the same time (dvr back and forth). That's the depths of desperation to which I have fallen, that tv helps me hang on.

oprah

I'm backlogged on my Opray shows so I'm having my own little Oprah thon the last few days. I'm on 21 shows left, I think. It's sad, but true, I like watching Oprah. I don't like all the shows and I don't like her religious views but I like her. I have fun watching her. I will miss her shows.

Last night I did something fun--went to Scott's soccer party at a cabin at Milford. We walked through the woods with 7-10 girls, watched them climb trees (scott too), and sat at a campfire and ate s'mores. We surprised Scott for his birthday and ate too much, too. Sometimes you just gotta break out of the box.

I think my home life being boring is a huge plus as my work life is so unpredictable and different every day. Too much excitement, maybe.

Another new thing: went to a turbo kick class yesterday. Good, hard workout, fun!

This blog reads like a twitter.

Easter Weekend

This was (still is for a few more hours) a nice, relaxing, wonderful weekend. I started a new journal:). Leah came home:) She came to work with me Friday and spent the afternoon observing and learning. We went on a walk and went to Chipotle (with Scott). Saturday we went shopping:) I go the most perfect jeans! Size 10! And more fabulous, colorful socks. I even ordered some keen sandals that I can wear for my water jog class this summer. Today Leah went to church with us and it was good. We had a nice meal both Sturday evening (salmon, corn on the cob, sweet potatoes and asparagus) and today (ham, augratin potatoes, salad and strawberry shortcake). After Leah went home, I picked up Adelle. We grabbed a few items at the grocery store, colored eggs, looked at her facebook (she refused to friend her oldest sister and her dad) and she sat on the front step while I planted my wave petunias. Scott and I sat on the back patio in the sun for awhile this afternoon too. The windows are still open and there is a nice breeze. I loved having Leah home. Joel will be home in a few short weeks and school will be out! Hannah is coming home the first week of summer. I want to spend some time with Shari whom I haven't even talked to (or texted or facebooked or anything!) in forever. I want to get some sun and work out in a relaxed way. I want to go to Newton and hang out with Leah. I want to drive up to Wyoming and hike in the mountains and maybe camp. I would LOVE to drive Joel back to school in August or fly him there and see his apartment but not sure that will happen. Looking forward to the MCC girls season, getting to know them better, getting involved in that ministry. I am sooooo happy that I know Jesus as my Savior and He's there helping me, guiding me, loving me every single day. I just check my voice messages and Hannah sang me an Easter song:) Happy Easter!

Technology

I am really into technology. I have a laptop, ipod and a smart phone. I google, facebook, tweet, blog. But technology does not like me. If there is a problem to be had, it will happen to me. Music on my itunes disappears. My facebook account kicks me out every 10 seconds. I got a virus on my computer. I can't get the printer to work. I am always frustrated with technology. I have never had my email hacked, thank goodness, like mom recently did. Why can't it work like its supposed to?

An Amazing Day

God is good because He knew after a hard week, I needed a perfect day. So I slept til 9 and got up and had my quiet time. Scott got up and was working on a paper for his class. He wanted me to tell him what his conflict style at home is. Ha Ha! You want the whole list? Yes! So I did. Which led to a long discussion, working stuff out that was good to talk out. Like free marraige counseling. So I did some laundry, took a shower, got some warm sweats on (my favorite USC sweatshirt in cheery yellow). Did I mention the sun was shining after a rainy Friday? I went to the grocery store. I still think its fun to get just the food we need for the week, all healthy, no extras or junk. Two bananas, two apples, two oranges, salmon, sweet potatoes, chicken, kashi cereal, almond milk, stuff like that. Only $139 all told! I got home and ate some pretzels and natural peanut butter and took a nap! The weather warmed up to shorts weather. Then I picked up Adelle and we headed to the mall. On the way, we saw a sign for a car wash for the family of the boy who was killed this week so we went. What a great idea! The grieving kids needed something to DO to help and here they were raising money for his family. His sister was there, his girlfriend was there, his footbal teammates were there, and tons of friends. There were hugs all around. Adelle even hugged Tyler's girlfriend for a really long time. I got tears in my eyes. Come to think of it, I don't think I've ever seen Adelle hug anyone. She helped wash cars and had a wonderful time. Then we went to the mall and I tried on new shoes. I usually don't like getting new shoes for the gym because I end up spending too much and get ones similar to the ones I always get. This time, there were so many cute new styles out. I bought some black reeboks with hot pink soles and hot pink inside that shows through some. And they were about a third the cost of what I usually get! So I got some fun short socks in hot bright colors too! We went to the house and hitched up the dogs and walked down to old stadium where there was a soccer game with some of the MCC girls Scott will be coaching. He was there too. I saw an old friend and she liked talking with Adelle. We stayed for about half an hour then walked back to the house. I forgot to mention that on the way, we found $15 laying on the sidewalk with no one to give it back to, so I gave it to Adelle. Rex also pooped in a yard and we picked it up with a paper cup and laughed together about poop in a cup. At the house, we looked at Adelle's facebook page and she got choked up over a wall post about Tyler. We went to Target and I got some great deals on the things I needed--fun paper plates and napkins in bright colors for entertaining that were $1.50 a package! I needed some more work out shirts and they were $7.95 so I got a white one, a grey one with flowers and a dark grey one. I got some hot pink nail polish and some sunglasses --white with flowers on them like the ones I got a few years ago at Urban Outfitters that broke. Adelle bought herself a brownie with her own money (the money we found) and she liked that. I took her home and then made teriyaki chicken and brown rice. I was in such a good mood I let Scott listen to his country music while I cooked. He bought a stool and he likes sitting at the kitchen island with his computer to do his homework. After dinner we walked to Radinas where we are sitting right now at our computers! And the girl with the annoying loud voice left! What a good day!

feeling

Feeling the need to blog then a good workout after. A crazy day at work. You may have heard on the news, 14 year old teen found dead near my school. Yep, went to my school last year. And now another kid that went to my school last year is arrested for doing the killing. Shot the kid in the head. Possibly over a stupid conflict. This is why we do what we do at Eisenhower but we can't control the choices they make when they leave us. We work hard to give kids a safe place to come when there is a conflict or bullying situation and we work hard not to minimize it and to help them resolve it. Because when you don't, this is the nonsense that can happen. So I spent the morning doing crisis counseling with all the hurting, hurting kids and staff who loved this kid. And others who weren't close but just feel a real loss of innocence. Yes, this is a world where two 14 year old kids can't work out a conflict over something small and it results in a dead kid in a field. Unbelievable.

Spring Break part three plus some more

The final part of Spring Break was grey, cold, blah, boring and sort of lonely.

Last week was a crazy blur, busy at work, busy at home.

Thursday night went to Junction to watch the girls win over Wichita West 4-0. Fun times.

Friday night met Scott at the Manhattan-Olathe North game and sat with the JC team AND the new MCC team girls! It was so fun! We had both teams over for cheesecake and pizza and good times. I really like the MCC girls so that is going to be a blast.

Scott got accepted to grad school this week. Everything is coming together for him. The recruiting is already going amazingly well with Rachel Lease that he's coached for years and just loved committing this week to come play. She came over Friday night to meet the girls too.

Then yesterday Scott wanted to go to Wichita to see one of his new players for next year--the goal keeper for Maize high school. He dropped me off with Leah and went on in to Wichita to watch her game and meet her parents and get to know her. He was very impressed. Leah and I had a wonderful time! We got food at her favorite restaurant--Chong's and ate it picnic style by the river. Then we went to David's brother's house and babysat one year old Colin. We took him for a long walk and then DAvid's mom came over. We went back to the mod and went downtown but everything was closed. I love to spend time with Leah and it was extra good to get some one to one time.

Today I got Adelle and we went to the library and grocery store and then came over here and made a facebook page for Adelle. (With her mom's permission--I am keeping the passwords). So we sent a friend request to about 15 people starting with the gal she considers her best friend and a boy she talked about constantly last year. They responded and confirmed immediately along with several others. When I got home from Bible study just now, I needed to open my email and her new one popped up and I cried as I saw a page and a half of friend confirmations and requests. She is going to be so unbelievable excited! She also started in special olympics track this week and I asked her how it was going. Her response: "Insanely good!" She had so much fun on facebook putting in her favorite sports teams, players, and commentators. Her friend, John, said "Yessss! Are you on facebook?!" and she answered, "Yes, as of today, thank you very much." Amazing.

Off to paint my nails, maybe call mom real quick, pay some bills, send some birthday cards to nephews, etc.