Stop Striving

My brother has me listening to The Power of Joy on cd in the car and I've been doing it all week. I already know this stuff, it's about connecting with God and letting God heal us through the joy of connecting with Him. Its brain research based.  I believe it, I teach it, I preach it.  It's about relationship and not religion.

So every day I do my quiet time which includes praising Him, writing and Journalling my gratitude, studying His word, giving Him my struggles and cares.  This summer I was on fire for God.  I went to Him, connected with Him, several times a day.  Lately, I don't feel it.  I seek Him.  I take my struggles to Him.  But I also struggle with being nice, particularly to Scott.  And I struggle with feeling let down by others, wanting more than they can give me.  I hurt about these and I take them to God regularly.  I'm going back through The Respect Dare and ask God every day to help me achieve the daily goals.  And I fail pretty much every day.  

Here is what God said to me today in church:

Our sermon was about fasting.

"Quit trying.  Quit doing.  Just let me love you, delight in you.  Just appreciate how much I love you.  I loved you enough to die for you.  Just soak in my Presence.  Connect with me.  You've been let down.  You hurt.  You want more.  It's not about you or anything you say or do.  Stop all expectations of yourself and others.  Receive from me.  Be with me.  Let me remind you again of all I've done for you! Who I am, who you are in me.  Let me be in charge.  Give me control.  Humble yourself before me. I will keep you safe from the devil and from yourself.  Fast from all religious doing, all attempts at being. Seek only me and my joy and peace.  Stop all self improvement and resolutions.  Just bask in My glory, My grace.  I will reveal my heart to you.  Fuse your heart to mine.  Be broken before me.  Stop trying to get your needs met from others or the world.  Fast from all striving.

Ok, God.  Keep reminding me.  

Stop Striving

My brother has me listening to The Power of Joy on cd in the car and I've been doing it all week. I already know this stuff, it's about connecting with God and letting God heal us through the joy of connecting with Him. Its brain research based.  I believe it, I teach it, I preach it.  It's about relationship and not religion.

So every day I do my quiet time which includes praising Him, writing and Journalling my gratitude, studying His word, giving Him my struggles and cares.  This summer I was on fire for God.  I went to Him, connected with Him, several times a day.  Lately, I don't feel it.  I seek Him.  I take my struggles to Him.  But I also struggle with being nice, particularly to Scott.  And I struggle with feeling let down by others, wanting more than they can give me.  I hurt about these and I take them to God regularly.  I'm going back through The Respect Dare and ask God every day to help me achieve the daily goals.  And I fail pretty much every day.  

Here is what God said to me today in church:

Our sermon was about fasting.

"Quit trying.  Quit doing.  Just let me love you, delight in you.  Just appreciate how much I love you.  I loved you enough to die for you.  Just soak in my Presence.  Connect with me.  You've been let down.  You hurt.  You want more.  It's not about you or anything you say or do.  Stop all expectations of yourself and others.  Receive from me.  Be with me.  Let me remind you again of all I've done for you! Who I am, who you are in me.  Let me be in charge.  Give me control.  Humble yourself before me. I will keep you safe from the devil and from yourself.  Fast from all religious doing, all attempts at being. Seek only me and my joy and peace.  Stop all self improvement and resolutions.  Just bask in My glory, My grace.  I will reveal my heart to you.  Fuse your heart to mine.  Be broken before me.  Stop trying to get your needs met from others or the world.  Fast from all striving.

Ok, God.  Keep reminding me.  

Garmin

I got the funniest gift for Christmas. A garmin vivosmart HR!

It tells me to get moving, keeps track of my activity, heart rate, and sleep, has the weather and phone notifications(texts, etc).  I haven't done this yet, but I can wear it in the pool to keep track of that, too!

Here is the number of steps I went today: 

Here is the temp currently:

There is an app on my phone that I analyze all this on.

Here is my sleep last night:

And here is how much I moved in the night:

It syncs with an app that I put in what I eat and it keeps track of calories and nutrients.

It's a lot of fun.  I'd like to tell you that it is helping me lose weight but it hasn't at all!  I think it is good for me overall, but most of all, it sure is fun!